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Life is Moving, I Am Standing Still…

rln2287 — Thu, 20 Mar 2008 08:33:54 +0000

It seems so strange not to be at home. I certainly don’t miss my mother at all. But I miss the familiar things about life there. Going out to smoke on the porch, having our own room with a CLOSET, and being able to go out and stay out until all hours of the night. Devin’s mom is such a light sleeper that she can hear us on the basement stairs from the top floor of the house. She really seems to enjoy having us around. She and I take turns cooking dinner for the family, we go grocery shopping together, and run errands together, I also think she really enjoys having someone to talk to on a regular basis. We’re still settling in and trying to make the basement our “home” temporarily. Devin is doing really well at his new job. However, the managers there are big A-holes. He describes his work environment as “Inter-tech” from Office Space. If he screws up at anything once, he hears about it nine times from all nine managers. They seem to be really finickey about little details of the job. He doesn’t really enjoy it, but a job’s a job right? Speaking of jobs, I’m still in the process of suing workman’s comp. Which is going swimmingly. They love to dick you around and try to get you to drop the suit, but I can’t really loose so I don’t really give a shite.

Well that’s all I can really think to write about at this moment. I’m headed to the Mae concert with Blair tonight! (That was my B-day pressie from her!!) I’m super excited because I adore Mae and I know it will be a fantastic show!

Hope all is well with you readers! (All two of you.)

-Rach

Insanity Plagues Me…

rln2287 — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 23:47:04 +0000

My mother is going insane. She thinks she’s perfectly fine and all the while she’s trying to get herself taken off her meds. Which would be a very bad thing! She’s slowly slipping back into insanity and I feel like she’s trying to take me with her. She makes it a point to jump on my every nerve, to ask me 200 questions about every single little aspect of my life, and to force her unrealistic and insane opinions on me at every minute of the day. She tells me that I am a bad wife to my husband and if she were his wife she would to this that way and she would never say that and she would make this for him for dinner…. then she goes and does those things. She buys my husband presents. she buys things especially for him to have and love. And she gets nothing for her daughter. It’s although she’s trying to live vicariously through me. She never really had love, she had a shotgun wedding. Then a shotgun divorce. So now that her daughter is in love, she wants to do everything she can to experience that love THROUGH me. I know it sounds creepy, but I promise it’s SOOO much creepier in person. I get headaches constantly throughout the day from her. I want to rip my hair out, and at times, I want to find something blunt and dull and come at her with it.

Every time I try to get away from her for an hour or two, I’ll go out with friends, go to a diner, go to my in-law’s house, She calls me 23 times, and sends me 11 text messages all night asking where I am, Who I’m with, telling me not to be out late (because I’m 21 and unemployed so I have a curfew…) and to bitch about me spending money because she thinks the money would be better spent if I gave it all to her.

I could go on and on and on with this for days and days and days…. but for the sake of time, let us just say that I am very frustrated with my living situation and the fact that my mother won’t accept the fact that I’m an adult and let me live my life. I just needed to vent. And since I got that out… I don’t really feel better, But I feel like someone out there might, just might, understand what I’m going through.

until next time…

What’s going on…

rln2287 — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 10:26:33 +0000

Well, Valentine’s Day was wonderful! Devin and I went out with our friends Carrie and Rob to this little Irish pub called O’Holerans and even though we had to sit at our table for almost 45 minutes before we even ordered and then waited an hour for our food… it was SOO worth it! Devin and I shared the NACHO platter and I had an allergic reaction to the peppers in the salsa, but it was still so yummy! I found a new drink I enjoy very much (just turned 21 on Feb 2). Malibu Bay Breeze. I’ve been a bartender since I was 18, so I’ve made a very decent number of drinks, however, I was never allowed to taste said yummies until two weeks ago. I had two Malibu bay breezes and Devin had 4 beers and we spent hours talking about everything from our tastes in wine to sex and S&M (this conversation peaked the interest of an older lady sitting at the table next to us, so we just KEPT on talking about it…louder and louder. she nearly fell out of her chair listening in on us!) They only had one waitress, one cook, and one bartender in the whole place. When we got there there were only 2 other tables there, but by 8:00 almost every table was full (hence the hour-long wait for the food). Apparently whoever does the schedule for that place didn’t realize the significance of Feb 14. My Valentine’s night didn’t really have that much romance to it that evening due to certain curses on women, but I still had a really great time with Dev and our friends.

It’s so strange that Carrie and Rob and Devin and I got so close so quickly. Devin has known Carrie since high-school, but after he went away for the Navy, they kind of lost touch, but since he and I started dating, we all became very close friends. This was strange for me because I grew up in a family of all BOYS. My cousins, my brother. I was the ONLY girl until I was 14 and my cousin Hope was born. So I’ve always tended to gravitate towards guys, in a “friends” way. I have way more guy friends than girl friends and it has always been that way. But when I met Carrie, we bonded almost instantly. She and I have so much in common and she has become one of my best friends in a very short amount of time. Devin and I have been together for almost 2 years, and Carrie and I met about 8 months ago and since then she has always been there for me and always been the one I can go to with ANYTHING and she is kind, considerate, and understanding.

The same thing goes for Devin’s sister, Nicki. She and I knew each other for the past year (seeing as she’s related to Dev) but only recently did we start hanging out. It’s so strange that we became such fast friends and it’s all because her boyfriend is a douche, and my best friend of 10 years decided to start using Oxycontin and heroin. Funny how things happen right? I lose my best friend of ten years and within two days I’ve found two friends who are a million times more caring and understanding that she ever could have been. Nicki and I hang out at least twice a week and we always have a great time, whether we’re at a diner playing rummy and talking over coffee, or working on a puzzle at my kitchen table until 4:00AM. It’s so amazing the way the world works.

Devin and I are finally getting a car of our own. My mom crashed my car, and Devin has gone through two trucks. But this weekend we’re getting a 1999 Ford Taurus sedan for practically nothing. I’m not a big believer in religion of any sorts, but I consider the events of the past 8 months to be a complete blessing. Yes, we’ve had our bumps in the road, but along with that, so many WONDERFUL things have happened to us. We were given an entire house-full of appliances, dishes, furniture, cookware and a car. I’ve gained two new friends that I intend to have for the rest of my life. And my relationship with Devin has grown stronger and more wonderful with every day.

We’ve been working on communicating, and spending more time together. That’s going to slow down a little with Devin’s new job, but every day I can’t believe how happy I am to be with him. He doesn’t even realize how he saved me from myself the day we met. He is such a creative, inspiring, and beautiful person, and he doesn’t even know it.

Well, that’s going to do it for today. Until another time.

-Rachel Leigh Garman

I’m new to this.

rln2287 — Mon, 11 Feb 2008 10:33:38 +0000

This is my first post on here. But it’s 5:30 AM and I’m tired as hell. So I will think of something interesting to write about tomorrow.

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rln2287 — Sat, 09 Feb 2008 19:57:23 +0000

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